This is the testimony we have ALL been waiting for, including myself. I haven’t posted about it on social media because for one, I just really wanted to soak up the moment. Also, I haven’t really had many words- just real conversations with God. He is truly a way-maker and a miracle worker. His divine orchestration makes this all the more beautiful. All of the honor and the glory goes to Him.
If you know me personally or if you’ve read any of my previous posts, you know that I’ve dealt with a lot of hurt, a lot of trauma, and a lot of emotional pain. If you haven’t, here’s some backstory: as a child, I forced to grow up pretty quick. I saw and felt things that no child should EVER have to see or feel. I moved around a lot- living with different classmates, teammates, neighbors, you name it. The only thing that was my escape… the only thing that kept me stable was running track. Track and field was my entire life. It opened so many doors for me and has been a vehicle for me to see so many different parts of the world. I was blessed with a full scholarship to run track at a University 3,000 miles away from home. I took a chance and left home and moved into unfamiliar territory. I’ll be honest and say that those were some of the worst years of my life. My mental health was in shambles, the people who were supposed to look after to me and take care of me treated me like shit, and everything just felt as though it was falling apart. My depression and anxiety had reached an all-time high. Even with all of that, I graduated. I graduated from college. I didn’t end up being another statistic. I mean because based on my background, that wasn’t possible right? Well, after college, I still had no idea what to do with myself. For the last three years, beginning on July 5th, 2017, I’ve waited tables at a restaurant. One of the most physically and emotionally taxing experiences. While there are good people in this world, there are also a lot of shitty people, which makes working in the industry so awful at times. But throughout the entirety of it all, I just kept my head down and worked extremely hard. Of course people were clowning me- I’m a grown woman with a college degree arguing with folks about how many ranches come with their wings. But all I could really is put my faith in God and let Him lead the way.
This global pandemic came into play. The world fell into shambles. Lives were lost. Businesses shut down. People lost their only source of income. Everyone was losing their minds. You want to know the crazy thing? That sense of panic and worry and stress and uncertainty was already taking place in my own world. So this wasn’t much of shock for me. This level of crazy was my everyday norm. While this has been such a devastating time, for me personally it allowed for growth to take place. It allowed everything to pause for me so that I could find myself. Life was just so overwhelming to the point where I felt like I was suffocating. But during this time, miracles happened.
I took a chance and applied for a job that on paper, I am not qualified for. I applied for a teaching position. I didn’t go to school for this, I have no certifications, and I honestly do not know what it takes to be an educator… but I took a chance. They took a chance too, and gave me an interview. I didn’t expect anything out of it honestly, I was just hoping for the best. In my interview, instead of convincing them that I could be the very best teacher they’d ever seen, I wow’ed them with my WHY. My why? It’s to inspire others. To help others find their light and to help them be the very best versions of themselves. Helping others find themselves and to witness their growth is what sparks a fire inside of me. That’s because all of my life, that’s all I needed to help me push forward. That one person who kept believing in me even when all hell was breaking loose.
I’ll be honest with you and say that they looked at me with blank faces and not much expression. I figured that the interview was just another thing to add to my long list of failures.
They saw me. They saw my light. They saw potential. They offered me a JOB. A CAREER. Thanks to God, I’ve received an opportunity to boss up and change my life. I am extremely grateful to all of my family and friends who never gave up on me. I am thankful for the Earthly vessels God placed in my life to do his work. Oh and ask me when my start date is? July 5th, 2020. Does that date ring a bell?
While this is a huge milestone, this is just the beginning. Never stop believing. God is still on the throne. ❤